Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Sleep, Cough, Guilt
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Thursday, July 19, 2012
Sleeping...or Not
As you can tell already I'm not making much sense. That is because I'm exhausted. Being tired isn't something new to me. Ít's been happening since I had my first child at age 21. I gained some weight. Had another kid. Gained more weight. Had another kid. As I've gotten older I've noticed that it was more than being tired.
I've been on antidepressants for years, they help my gloomy mood but don't take it away. I was also diagnosed with high blood pressure and have had to have my medication increased a few times over the last year as my exhaustion has continued to get worse.
I finally decided to make myself an appointment with a sleep clinic to see if they could see what was happening. Luckily my insurance made it all very easy. I went in for a consultation. Took some forms they had mailed me and realized people with sleep problems often times have depression and high blood pressure.
At the consultation they made an appointment for an overnigh sleep study. I showed up in my PJ's read a book and waited to get all hooked up. The man than helped me was super nice and made it a good experience. The only problem is that it's hard to sleep in new place hooked up to an amazing number of cords and things hooked to your face, head, chest and legs.
Apparently I did fall asleep eventually and they were able to see that I do have sleep apnea. They send you home and you await a second study. So I had a month in between studies knowing I had sleep apnea and there was nothing but waiting. That's pretty hard but knowing there was something we could try made it bearable.
Finally my second study came and this one where they set you up with the mask and machine and try to find what pressure you need to help you not have waking issues. The problem is that they hook you back up to all the wires and gadgets and you have a hard time sleeping.
The mask didn't bother me, but things stuck all over my head did. Apparently I was eventually able to sleep so they could determine a pressure but I woke up exhausted. Even though I slept enough to get a pressure, it wasn't enough to feel rested.
The I had to wait for the home health company to contact me about my cpap machine. Luckily that didn't take long and I picked it up yesterday. I was so excited. I got all hooked up and figure in my own bed and without all the hook ups, just the machine I should be good to go.
Little did I know that it's extremely hard to get comfortable when you are worried that the thing is coming loose or moving around or where your pillow is...especially the fact that you fall asleep lying on your stomach, which is pretty near impossible with a big mask on your face.
I woke up today....exhausted but determined to find my way in this. I've decided to give up caffine and start exercising. I've usually downed a good 44 oz of caffinated soda a day, taken naps at lunch time in my car and been too tired to exercise. That all ends today. If I am going to commit to a new life and go through all of this trouble to sleep; I am going to make it worth it.
I'm walking on breaks and lunch today and no caffine. I know I'll get the headache from withdrawal but hell, I've already got one from being so damn tired. Why not get it all over with at once? Tonight I am going to try to fluff my way through the night with new pillow combinations. Wish me luck...I'm gonna need it.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Sadness
I told the family and we sat on the porch. I was wondering which one of my neighbors was experiencing this and that is when I saw a paramedic run from my next door neighbors house to his truck and back again. At that point I knew something tragic was happening. I wanted to make sure it was safe, but didn't want my neighbor to suffer alone.
Soon I saw my neighbor step outside with her daughter in law. Her daughter in law was experiencing the type of grief I hope to never see again. I won't go into details since it is already all over news. I hugged my neighbor tightly as the ambulance drove away.
My heart breaks for them today...
Monday, April 18, 2011
Living life and letting go.
My first real, close female friend came to me by chance. Our lives connected through our husbands but she has become one of my closest friends. We connect on a basic level of being women, mothers, wives, and in the work force. I love her and her family. I miss her when we don't speak or see each other for a while.
This opened me up to a whole world of friendships that I never thought I could be a part of. I was invited by an aquaintance to join a neighborhood Wine Wednesday group. This is a group of mother's in our neighborhood that get together every Wednesday to drink wine and just be women together. It's a safe place to talk and open up. It's nice to feel the connection of a sisterhood. This is a group of women who connect on a level based soley on the fact that want to connect. Some women are married, most have children, some work, some are divorced, ages vary, beliefs vary but the connection remains.
Since walking away from the family I knew, the connections I had. I've come to realize that who you are is based entirely on who you choose to be. I want to reconnect my life to the people who make me happy, who understand and accept me. In order to do that I need to be happy, understanding and accepting.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Maceo
When his dad and I met, I had two kids from my previous marriage. I thought having another child would make my husband realize that he loved my other kids but not in the same way he loved his biological child. But welcoming Maceo into our family bonded us all in a way that I never expected.
Maceo is a kid with strong personality and a strong will. I love him very much. Thanks for being such a great person.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Parties
The friends I do have, I absolutely adore, but they have extended families that up much of their time this time of year. It makes me a bit sad and a bit jealous. But I love what I do have so I'll take it. Maybe I'll have a party anyway even if no one shows up....we will see....I'm still thinking abou it.