Living life and letting go.

I know in previous posts I've talked about my estrangement from my family.  It's a big part of who I am now and shapes alot of things about who I am.  I've always wanted to have friends around me and I've never known how to go about finding them.  In the past few years I've opened myself up to new friendships and I've learned alot about myself in the process. 

My first real, close female friend came to me by chance.  Our lives connected through our husbands but she has become one of my closest friends.  We connect on a basic level of being women, mothers, wives, and in the work force.  I love her and her family.  I miss her when we don't speak or see each other for a while. 

This opened me up to a whole world of friendships that I never thought I could be a part of.  I was invited by an aquaintance to join a neighborhood Wine Wednesday group.  This is a group of mother's in our neighborhood that get together every Wednesday to drink wine and just be women together.  It's a safe place to talk and open up.  It's nice to feel the connection of a sisterhood.  This is a group of women who connect on a level based soley on the fact that want to connect. Some women are married, most have children, some work, some are divorced,  ages vary, beliefs vary but the connection remains. 

Since walking away from the family I knew, the connections I had.  I've come to realize that who you are is based entirely on who you choose to be.  I want to reconnect my life to the people who make me happy, who understand and accept me.  In order to do that I need to be happy, understanding and accepting.