Jake

My oldest child turned 15 yesterday.  This has been the weirdest birthday for me so far.  15 is on the brink of adulthood.  He stands a good 4-5 inches taller than me already but he still enjoys a night time tuck in.  He's an amazing person but it's hard to get to know him since he's so engrossed in his own teenage life, video games, and schooling. 

My favorite times with Jake are when there are glimmers of who he will be when he is an adult.  He has an amazing sense of humor and a hilarious laugh that always makes me smile.  Jake is the person in my life who has taught me who I am, he's had to endure parenting mistakes because he's the oldest.  In a way we have grown up together.  We lived through a marriage, divorce, another marriage, two siblings, elementary school and middle school.  He's known me as a struggling single mom living in an apartment and the woman I am now and at the end of the day, he makes me proud to be his mother. 

A New Year

It's 2010.  It's time for change to happen.  It's up to me to do it.  This last year has opened my eyes up to a world of possiblities.  Things don't have to be perfect for them to be amazing.  That's something that I've always appreciated. It's true of people, work, education, love, and home.  It's often the little imperfections that make things worth more, makes them unique and makes them appreciated. 

I've decided that 2010 is my year to embrace my imperfections, try to improve myself but not get so caught up in what could be, should be or isn't that I don't enjoy the here and now.  I've always had a hard time doing that but realizing that the only thing holding me back is myself and my inability to make that choice was a revelation. 

I'm a work in progress, even if it is an imperfect work.